2/25/04

Shit Happens

Ever have one of those days where you know you shouldn’t have gotten out of bed but it’s too late to crawl back into the blankets? How about too many of those days to count in the last few months? But, the front goes up anyway so no one knows I am completely freaking out inside day by day. Not quite sure if I’m really freaking out inside or if there is some black hole in my head that is housing all of the bad shit. I really haven’t felt freaked out about anything that has happened and even with the news today, I don’t. Maybe I have finally gotten to the point that I know that the things that are important to me can’t be taken away from me by anyone. You can take away my marriage, my job, my house, my car, and all of my belongings. Take them all. I still have my children, myself, my friends and the knowledge that life goes on no matter what. Shit’s going to happen to everyone everyday, just different levels dealt out differently. You can freak out and waste time worrying and messing up more or you can sit back and say ‘go head….give me your best shot…I can take it.’

PS. If, by chance, all the bad stuff is just building up in some black hole in my head, I will have to be locked up in a straight-jacket and padded room if that black hole ever opens up. They’re coming to take me away..he he..ha ha...