5/8/04

And the world keeps going around and around…..

I was being told that some of my friends ‘weren’t good enough for me’ to hang out with over and over by the same people basically. Even the ones who didn’t use those similar words were putting down some of my other friends right in front of me. Why is everyone upset now that I have actually let some of my friendships go and I hardly ever go out anymore? Isn’t this what you wanted from me, although it was really my life and not your business?!

There’s basically only 3 people that I consistently talk to and hang out with (well, 2 if you take away the fact that one is being considered because he lives w/ my current bestfriend) and they aren’t really even people that were stated to be ‘bad friends’ so much. And, the third is kinda a new friend that I am just getting to know. Don’t freak out if you know who the 3rd person is…I’m not getting serious with him. Yet, I haven’t been honest with any of you except Bridgett and Eric when it comes to him. He basically in a smaller sense is taking the place of Trent. He’s becoming one of my best friends along with holding me when I need it and a maybe just a little bit more. He calls me everyday just to see what I’m doing and although neither of us has any extra cash to go out, we can hang out just listening to music and talking about whatever comes to mind.

Yep, he’s turning into my Trent if Trent could ever actually be replaced. Just for the record, in my mind and heart, he can’t be, but he made this choice to drop our friendship and I shall abide by his non-spoken request. I know he has talked to a few of you making it appear that it was me that just overreacted once again and I didn’t give him a chance to explain why he didn’t return any of my 3 phone calls, why he could party with other friends ignoring me and the fact that the main person I wanted my childhood bf to meet was him but I couldn’t reach him, and why it’s now been about a month with no word from him. So, sorry but you guys can believe what you want. Did you really expect him to just come out and say ‘hey, what JC and I were doing was a mistake and I can’t take it back to the friendship level now cuz I’m who I am and she’s turned into a regular chick in my head now’? Yeah, okay.